Put On Your Big Girl Pants, Stephanie

Have you ever wanted something so much that it consumed you? It was like every part of you, down to a cellular level, wanted this one thing?

If you have known such longing, then you probably also know the splitting pain that comes with that sort of hunger. It’s the only kind of heartache I know that’s worse than the type caused by another person.

Yesterday, I had to make a choice. It was one of those choices where you’re damned if you do or damned if you don’t. And it sucked.

I had to put my dream of traveling back on the shelf to start a full time job two months early. I had to reschedule plane tickets, talk to landlords in other countries, break down something that it took me two years to build.

And for what, you may ask. What is more important than your dreams?

Stability. I had to put on my big girl pants and suck it up and just do what had to be done.

Sometimes, life is our biggest traitor. It gives you exactly what you need at exactly the wrong time.

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